Months ago..."you need to let me know some dates that we can keep Alex during your season" I reply: "ok, mom. Let me take a look at the calendar." A few weeks pass..."have you checked the calendar yet?" My reply: "not yet but I will." And a few more go by..."how about when you are gone the first 2 weeks of February?" Me: "ok, that sounds like a good plan."
As tomorrow approaches for us to drop Alex off with my parents, I think back to these multiple short but yet so full of emotion conversations. Is it that I don't trust my parents to keep him...NOT even a chance do I think that way. Is it that I worry he won't be loved on...YEAH right, he's going to be the most spoiled little boy when he returns. Is it that I just can't fathom being away from him for so long...YEP, that's it!!! I have done everything I can not to think about it but now the time is so near. I spent every second I could with him over the past few days and would just tear up every time I think about him leaving. How could someone so little have just a tight grip on my heart?
Tomorrow will be the test...can I leave him knowing it won't be for over a week until I see him again? My heart is both heavy and yet so calm at the same time! I will miss him more than he will ever know or understand but G-mom and G-papa will begin to make memories with him that they will be able to carry with them for the rest of their lives!
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